Shortly before leaving Santa Cruz I had a session with well-known channeler Paul Selig. Initially he resisted meeting with me. There was no answer to my e-mails for the pre-paid appointment.
Right out-of-the-gate, in a Skype session (2018) with Paul Selig — and before I uttered even one word — Paul said “This was not intentional to you.”
Paul and his Guides knew I had “fallen thru the cracks” (those are the exact words of Russell Smith in a recorded session).
Paul knew I was the inadvertent ‘holder’ for the lies of Nome, Russell Smith and Candice O’Denver. That was the very reason Paul was resistance to meeting with me.
Those teachers had foisted the entirety of the responsibility for their own karma —for their own lies and deceptions — on myself and my family…then silenced me (under threat-Source: Nome) and isolated me for a decade to ensure their lies would never became public knowledge.
While I knew this was not ‘intentional to me’ I, also, knew that the existential controls over this life would have never occurred were it not for the lies and deceptions of those teachers.
As with everyone else, Paul/Guides knew what occurred here and yet: no apology, no acknowledgement of any wrongdoing and, certainly, no accountability …from anyone in the ‘non-dual’ community…who consider themselves arbiters of ‘truth.’
Several years ago Matt Licata described my situation as a ‘cosmic betrayal.’ That is an accurate description. This betrayal…akin to being ‘buried alive’ (a description by Aile Shebar) was systemically covered-for throughout the non-dual community. (Matt Licata is former Director of the Sounds True Division of Professional Studies and a psychotherapist, author, and independent scholar.)
In July, 2018, feeling tenuously confident in my connection to the Support of Spirit I pack up my place at Coffee Lane and begin the drive to Portland, Oregon and to a new life free of physical surveillance. This move would solve the physical control yet, I knew, it would have no sway over the occult controls upon which time and space have no effect.
That drive up to Portland from Santa Cruz took me right through the two prophetic and tragic wildfires that were burning in northern California that month.
Throughout the rest of 2018 I continue with my ‘learning curve’ of paying close attention to my inner psychology. The very real world of Spirit infection can easily occur in our auric fields…whether deliberately via an adept (as was the case via Nome) or simply as nefarious activity that is easily picked up in any environment.
It should stated that, in the worlds of Spirit, high-level shadow Beings go up about as high as high-level Light Beings. And the shadow Beings can easily mimic the Divine.
At this point it is clear that ‘auric violations’ of this type…as well as ‘sycophantic-entities’ (originally pointed out by seer Althea Provost)…are the source of most of the energetic violations appearing as ‘control.’
Late in 2018…after taking Jeff Brown’s ‘Writing Your Way Home’ course…I was on a call with Jeff…author of numerous books including Grounded Spirituality.
Jeff Brown had been enormously helpful in my process if for no other reason than his brilliant writing and his careful and accurate descriptions of the harmful effects of the authoritarian aspects of patriarchal spirituality.
It was upon hearing an interview with Jeff, in early 2018, that I felt I had stumbled upon someone who was clearly expressing everything that had been an actual lived experience.
In an online meeting late in 2018 Jeff requested…actually insisted… that I name-the-teachers who had caused so much harm in this life…and the lives of my family.
At that time, I was nowhere near ready…in my own healing process…to name-the-teachers as there had been an internal death threat should I EVER release the ‘information’ that I was forced to hold regarding the lies and deceptions of those teachers.
I have to wonder at Jeff’s motivation for pressuring me to reveal this ‘information’ before I felt it was safe to do so.
Was Jeff Brown, also, covering for these teachers? If so…for what reason given the ‘purpose’ and trajectory of his writings?? If he – like SO many others in the non-dual community — was covering for those teachers…knowing that would completely undermine his message.
The beginning of 2019 marked the domino effect of great loss in my native family. My older brother passed in early 2019 followed by my mother shortly after. Then, a year later, the passing of my step-father. I traveled to New York…staying in an AirBnB so as to avoid my younger 2 brothers who literally scared me. I sent my brother Joel, with love, to the other side…where, no doubt, he would be far happier.
That visit would be the last time I would see my mother and Step-Father alive.
The new landing place in Portland was literally found by throwing a dart on the board. While way more than I could afford, I knew I would need a place not too depressing in order to counter the enormous weight from the passing of my native family and from the (literal) occult stalking that would only increase after this move.
I did everything I could to mitigate the effects of such strong, energetic violations.
It became an on-going and deliberate act of self-respect and self-love.
There was a palpable feeling of immense relief upon arriving in Portland.
I was extra careful in not giving out my address to anyone who might contact me from Santa Cruz. That was the beginning of telling folks…to their ‘face’…that I no longer trusted them. This happened when I was contacted by Marilyn Madden who inquired about a visit. I declined to give her my address…and, more importantly, I told her ‘why.’
In January, 2019 I had a session with local Evolutionary Astrologer Mark Dodich.
At the time of this session there was still a feeling of uncertainty. It would not be until later…that I would receive by the way of downloads and other messages from Spirit…that I was on the ‘right’ path and that the reporting of truth…is always for (the) good.
I was at the very beginning of opening up to reporting on the dangerous dynamic in the awakening community of: deliberate deception.
Mark mentioned in prayer at the beginning of our session that all the ‘Information’ put forth in that reading would be for the ‘highest good of all.’
It would be much later that I was, ultimately, convinced that only the Truth is for the ‘highest good of all‘ and that included relative truth.
In this case, the telling of the truth was deeply opposed by most in the non-dual community.
I previously had felt that the (authority of) teachers held that truth. That was/is certainly not the case. We’ve all seen that one can be awake to Wholeness and yet that, in no way, means one is free from shadow or is somehow a balanced and decent human.
One can be awake to Wholeness and still be creating delusions and, worse yet, harming others in the process.
In this session Mark indicated that I would be moving…yet again. This would be due to finances. I was beginning to feel like a refugee.
Beginning on my birthday, in February, 2019…and as a true Gift to myself…I begin the release of the YouTube videos telling the ‘story’ of this deeply complex web of deception…all without naming-the names.
The impetus to finally release this ‘information’ came about from a session with channeler, Meg Benedicte who, channeling Mary Magdalene, strongly encouraged me to release the story and to do so without naming names as, in that way, it might be more beneficial to others. The release of 1st video occurred in February, 2019.
This gave me the push to finally begin the process of unburdening myself from what I had been forced (under threat) to carry for Nome, Russell Smith and Candace O’Denver, aka Ziji Rinpoche…for the better part of a decade.
At this same time I started the process of building a website for which I had previously procured the domain name of www.IntegrityInTruth.com in 2018. The website would be dedicated to the important topic of Integrity in Truth teachings…or the lack thereof.
Early in 2019 I was referred to a web developer in the Portland area. Upon meeting with Sebastian Tello there was an instant attunement. He began with a photo shoot and some general layout, at my direction. The results of that photo shoot depicted me in a way that I intuitively felt undermined the seriousness of the message. That was my feeling in the moment.
After several meetings…and a recommendation to watch ‘Wild Wild Country’ (https://www.netflix.com/title/80145240 … the documentary on Osho which I binge-watched!) I began to have suspicions regarding Seb.
It was at a breakfast meeting where Seb appeared late but, more importantly, visibly nervous.
It was apparent that he became aware of the import of the ‘information’ I was holding and the dangerous impact that would have on the non-dual community.
Seb was being asked by me to help build an actual website that would help expose that systemic collusion! No wonder he was nervous! I decided to continue the website on my own. This, ultimately, had a learning curve of several years.
That website became an integral part of my healing journey as it enabled me to re-open a voice that had been silenced (under threat) for the better part of a decade. Additionally, it became imperative that I be able to make additions and changes to the website myself as my own clarity evolved.
The creative joy of combining my ‘story’ with the healing properties of nature photography and walking was the perfect Gift from the Universe.
Ramana Spencer contacts me for a visit that Fall. He seems to ‘know better’ than to ask me for an address!
Yet, from day-one of meeting him on the Facebook platform he was not being straight with me regarding his knowledge of Nome. The very first post in which I met him he was quoting from Nome’s ‘Ribhu Gita’…not a random book that one might purchase! Even then Ram continued to deny knowing Nome! Yet, at that point he could not have been aware of the ‘auric block’ and the ‘psychic implant’ that were utilized by Nome, et al, to ensure my silence.
Being stalked by siddis worsens in its intensity…and malevolence. The energy of Nome’s occult powers is un-misteakeable.
How to explain something that is so internal and yet, beyond a shadow of a doubt as to the origin? How did I deal with all the intensity of the occult stalking and control? It was a daily practice of deliberately clearing my energy field. If I would have one piece of advice for any human on this planet it would be to clear your auric field daily.
Upon returning from my trip to New York for the burial of my brother I begin, in earnest, to find, yet, another place to live.
It was also at this time that I give up any plan to try and find a job. At this point my Soul was demanding that my (actual) job be the re-opening of a voice and revealing where there had been a cosmic breach in the ‘awakening’ community…a breach that was/is being systemically covered-for.
A breach which Matt Licata, PhD had described as a ‘cosmic betrayal.’
My next reporting would begin the of naming-the-names, in an ever-increasing way that was in tandem with the ever-increasing downloads and messages from Spirit. Those downloads indicated I was, most certainly, on the right path. Without that confirmation I might have easily been too scared.
I move…again…in June, 2020.
Feel free to e-mail me with any questions at: leslie@integrityintruth.com ❦
