Thank you for visiting this site. ❦
Please note…this site represents a complex process of healing and unfolding. The story is a complicated one involving aspects which are highly difficult to prove. As such, this voice – which had been silenced under existential threat – will, ultimately reveal as much of the scope of this breach as I am able on this website. This site will be updated as I go deeper into the clarity of what occurred and as I move more fully into my own sovereign voice, thus healing myself. Given that, this website will undergo changes until the entirety of the story is public.
Throughout…the message regarding integrity and the facts-of-the-situation…of course, stays entirely the same.
In my relative life I am the mother of two adult ‘kids’ who are wondrous Human Beings. I could not be prouder…and more grateful…for who they are and who they have become…❤️
I’ve been variously trained as a Cultural Anthropologist (M.A.- with an emphasis on Culture Change, Psychological Anthropology and the exquisite Canadian Eskimo Arts of the Cape Dorset Inuit)…as an Interior Architect and Space Planner (M.A.) and as a hand-lettering and small-book artist.
For many years I worked in book sales. This included relinquishing my work as a hand-lettering artist for the purpose of managing the bookshop at SAT (The Society of Abidance in Truth in Santa Cruz, CA) and its mail-order operations (in an unpaid, service status) for 2.5 years.
After many, many years on a spiritual path I, inadvertently (and certainly by no choice of my own), became the ‘holder of secrets’ regarding the lies involved in the deceptive ‘split’ of the teachings of Nome and Russell Smith (brothers) of SAT (The Society of Abidance in Truth in Santa Cruz, CA) and their work with Candace O’Denver (who goes by multiple aliases) in establishing Great Freedom/Balanced View in Marin, CA. These were lies primarily covered-for by Adyashanti/Mukti and Gangaji but, additionally, by many currently acting teachers in the non-dual space. https://www.dropbox.com/s/hga3c7zpo1v973j/ASI%20Letter%2003%3A06%3A23.pdf?dl=0
While this unfortunate ‘position’ was certainly not ‘intentional’ to me…it would have never happened without an extensive series of overarching lies, deceptions, and airtight collusion within the non-dual community. The on-going, and extreme, misuse of siddis (occult) powers and psychic controls at the hands of, primarily Nome, would ensure that their lies would never…ever…become public knowledge. This existential control effectively allowed these teachers to foist the entirety of their (own) karma solely on these shoulders.
My path is through some extraordinary transgressions by those who are considered to be some of the highest teachers and teachings. These transgressions were/are being actively covered-for by many in the non-dual spiritual community.
Being natively a loyal bhakta (deeply devotional)…to come forth with this ‘information’ was undoubtedly the hardest decision of this lifetime. It was, ultimately, a decision to be loyal, solely, to the integrity of (the) Truth…and to end a karmic cycle…perhaps lasting lifetimes…of being silenced (under existential threat) at the hands of spiritual teachers.
That ‘silencing’ included being physically and psychically violated…via ‘auric block’ (for extreme relational control) and ‘psychic implant’ (for extreme, violative surveillance). This was only a portion of the means utilized to prevent the ‘information’ regarding the lies of the above-mentioned teachers from ever becoming public knowledge. https://integrityintruth.com/systemic-collusion-in-the-non-dual-field/
The decision to come forth was, ultimately, the rebalancing of the feminine and masculine within me so as to have the courage to, finally, speak Truth-to-power (and the many in the non-dual community actively covering for these teachers) regarding what happened. Basically an ‘uprighting of my Emperor’ to use Tarot language.
These lies were further controlled by systemic corruption within the non-dual community involving cover-up, collusion, complicity and coercion to protect the two organizations and their respective teachers. People (most who are ‘awake’) would lie directly to me regarding their knowledge of my former teachers and of what occurred at their hands.
There came a point where I could no longer betray this life…where I could no longer betray the lives of my family… and where I could no longer betray the Truth.
The pressure to remain silent for the rest of my life was life-threatening, in the deepest sense of the meaning. That threat includes well-known, and documented, physical affects upon heart-health from isolation and overt betrayal…not to mention the the controlling siddis of Nome of which I was deeply aware.
While a harsh designation, this was effectively a sanctioned ‘Soul murder’…akin to being ‘buried alive’ – an apt description originally used by Aile Shebar in describing my situation.
The subtle…and not-so-subtle…’pressure’ came directly from those in the spiritual community…later seen to be covering for these teachers. Those covering for these teachers included not only ‘friends’…but many who are currently acting teachers themselves.
For many years, I felt it was my spiritual obligation to never speak about what I was being forced to hold lest I, somehow, affect the evolution of awakening teachings. In this sense, my life was essentially taken. Please let that sink in.
A profound corner was turned with regard to speaking openly about what happened when an astrologer friend asked me the all-important question: “When you are no longer in your body…and you are reviewing your life and looking back upon this crossroads…what would your Soul have wanted you to do?”
The answer was clear. I had to tell the truth of what happened. Not only did I have speak-the-truth in order to save this life but it was a moral obligation my family and to The Truth itself.
What are my reasons for coming forth now? They are threefold:
- To end a karmic cycle, perhaps lasting lifetimes, of being silenced and isolated (under existential threat) and to finally re-open a rightful, authentic expression.
- For my Daughter and Son. ❤︎ ❦
- To uphold the integrity of Truth and to bring greater awareness to systemic shadow areas…areas lacking in Integrity…in high-level Awakening Teachings.
“God does take care of all things…karmically speaking…but there are times we need to ring the bell.”
Consider this site to be ‘a Bell’ …a place for hope and renewal. 🙏
Should you have any questions feel free to reach out at: Leslie@integrityintruth.com ❦ and please visit me on Substack: https://substack.com/@leslieread/posts
