What is integration?
For those who say “I’m not the doer” and “nothing ever happens”…integration, paradoxically, means to ‘own your actions.’
Owning one’s actions is the beginning of on-going integration…and integrity. Without integrity (any) awakening is meaningless.
Several years-ago I began reporting on the lies I had been forced (under existential threat) to hold for ‘non-dual’ teachers: Nome, Russell Smith and Candace O’Denver (who goes by a variety of aliases).
What were the lies?
The lies were in regard to the ‘supposed split’ of the teachings of the brothers Nome and Russell Smith and their formative connection with Candace O’Denver’s Great Freedom/Balanced View.
The supposed split (of the brothers) was a ruse.
When I returned to SAT (after being asked to leave Russ and Helga’s ‘The Way of Sudden Awakening’) upon entering the SAT Satsang Hall there was Russell sitting on the dias next to Nome, looking sheepishly at me as I entered the hall! After that Sunday, Russell left and did not return during the remainder of my stay at SAT.
The deceptions of the purported animosity between the brothers…in order to convincingly ‘paint the picture’…was a deliberate ruse that was even taken into the Santa Cruz County court system.
These lies occurred in tandem with the coupling/marriage of teachers (primarily Nome and Sasvati, aka Judy Gilden) and their own projected fear that jealousy may ensue.
I (and by relation, my family) became the inadvertent ‘holders’ for the deceptive secrets of these teachers.Because of that those teachers felt compelled to completely tear this life apart for the sole purpose of ensuring that their lies would never become public knowledge.
Henceforth I am forced (under threat) to hold the lies belonging solely to these teachers and for an un-embodied teaching I do not even believe in! Yes, non-duality is a ‘truth’ but without integrity it is (also) moot.
The systemic cover for these teachers/situation… occurring over this past decade+…includes many in ‘leadership’ and teaching roles in the ND spiritual community. Adyashanti/Mukti and Gangaji and many currently acting non-dual teachers were/are primary in their support of this cover-up. This includes several far-reaching non-dual organizations such as SAND, BatGap and ASI (The Association for Spiritual ‘Integrity’)…an organization making a mockery of the word ‘integrity’. https://integrityintruth.com/systemic-collusion-in-the-non-dual-field/
Matt Licata succinctly called this situation a ‘cosmic betrayal’ a description beautifully conveying its pervasive scope.
It has not only been a process of my own unfolding and understanding but of a growing revelation as to the extent of complicity and collusion in what has become known as the “non-dual” community.
The dark underpinnings of control, corruption and collusion as they exist in the non-dual space are clearly evident as they played out in this complex dynamic, involving highly un-provable siddis (occult powers), that is, unless one uses names and photos painting a clear narrative that would be nigh impossible to fabricate.
As a loyal and devoted seeker I was the recipient of (way) more than my fair share of the ‘beneficial’ aspect of occult powers. Because of that I was absolutely familiar with the unmistakeable ‘scent’ of siddis (occult powers).
Having been the one who “fell between the cracks” (exact words of Russell Smith in a taped session) the burden for the lies of those teachers fell squarely…and solely…on these shoulders…and hence the literal waterfall of psychic control to ensure their lies would never become public knowledge.
Whether beneficial OR malevolent: both aspects of occult control look to remove the inherent sovereignty that is each-of-our birthright.
Portending that level of control were Nome’s own words from the early years:
“Just look at who it is you’re up against.”
Those words, alone, demonstrated Nome’s dedication to power over others.
It is no wonder there was such extreme existential control over this life.
The most notable alliance to Nome, et al, in the suppression of this story was/is the key support of Adyashanti (and the many involved in Open Gate) during the entire time. https://integrityintruth.com/bentinho-and-the-adya-connection/ https://integrityintruth.com/systemic-collusion-in-the-non-dual-field/
It becomes my duty…if not Soul Mission…to bring light to this type of occult control and existential manipulation.
Unfortunately, in many ways, I feel uniquely qualified to disclose where there has been…and continues to be…harm existing under the shroud of spiritual control.
Fortunately, this marks the end of a karmic SoulCycle of having been silenced at the hands of spiritual teachers for being the holder of deceptive secrets.
This may not have been something I would have chosen.
There are times when Life chooses us for a particular job.
For this devotee to be speaking out so publicly the actions of the above-mentioned teachers would have had to be so extremely violative on the existential level.
Owning one’s actions is the beginning of on-going integration…and integrity. ❦
Thank you for your interest in this story.
Feel free to e-mail me with any questions at: Leslie@IntegrityInTruth.com ❦
