In September 2013 Gangaji gave a rare talk in the Santa Cruz area at the Inner Light Ministries in Soquel.
I had never heard Gangaji in person and so decided to attend. Prior to her talk I felt huge waves of love in my heart and, surprisingly, in the first 10 minutes of her talk, she talked glowingly about her friend Nome!
For the record: NO ONE talks about Nome…most especially in a public Satsang!!
She asked if anyone had heard of Nome. I was one of only a few to raise my hand. Meanwhile, Marilyn Madden was up on the balcony scanning the audience for their reaction.
Following that satsang there was a weekend mini-retreat held at the Sesnon House at Cabrillo College…the College where I worked.
In this mini-retreat there was further evidence of Gangaji’s support for, not only Nome, but indicating that she was aware of my having been marginalized and and of having endured a ‘character assassination.’ ⚛️https://integrityintruth.com/clarification-of-videos/character-assassination/
Gangaji then led an (obvious) exercise of going around the room asking each of us to give a description of ‘who we are’…individually, (not spiritually)…so as to emphasize an ‘inclusiveness.’
Knowing the potential extent of what I would be forced (under threat) to hold for the lies of my former teachers she knew it would be akin to being ‘buried alive’ and even said, at one point in her talk, that in some situations “bypassing is just fine!” Indeed that would be the only way to survive such an existential breach, suppression and control over one’s life.
While intitially ‘touched’ by the motions of both Adyashanti and Gangaji in covering for Nome and helping with the existential burden I was being forced to carry for their lies….lies that were not mine to hold…their obvious support for Nome, Russell Smith and Candace O’Denver would ALSO keep me silent for years after that. If they had been in alignment with Truth they would not have participated in a cover-up but would have definitively stated that “This is not right.”
At that point, my feeling was if I spoke up I would somehow be affecting the trajectory of Awakening teachings. The pressure to martyr this life…and the lives of my family… was enormous.
It was essentially a pressure to deny my own expression, and hence, awakening…not to mention communication with my family…which was profoundly affected in this life. It was a ‘death.’
The next post will deal with the “Compression Years”…a very apt description for extreme, existential control. The exact words of the description originated at SAT and would include the use of the occult ‘psychic implant.’ ⚛️https://integrityintruth.com/clarification-of-videos/the-compression-years-2013-2015/
As with many teachers Nome felt that ‘suffering’ was the way to liberation. It was certainly a prime reason, and excuse, to exercise existential control over others.
When one has lived a life of trauma further suffering is the last thing that anyone could possibly need for so-called liberation.
Thank you for your continued interest in shedding light on systemic and harmful, silent complicity and collusion in the non-dual community. ❦
If you have any questions, whatsoever, feel free to email me at: ⚛️Leslie@IntegrityInTruth.com.
